So tonight I went with my mom to an end of the year teacher party that one of her fellow staff members had. It was fine and all but then I stumbled on a chair on my way down to sitting on it and allll the teachers saw it and laughed and assumed i was trashed. Yeah I had been drinking but that was not the cause of the fall. So that brought my pride way down, then around 9 (when minutes are free) I eagerly went to the front yard to call my boyfriend, needing an escape from my mother who was slowly getting buzzed and telling me things I really didn't feel like listening to. Welllll he was too busy getting ready to go uptown and told me he had to go, so I didn't get to talk to him. Bring on the tears. I guess it was a combination of me not wanting to be there, my mom annoying me, falling down, and then the icing on the cake that was him telling me he had to go. So I stomped back to the back yard and of course my mom wanted to know what was wrong and I didn't feel like telling her but of course she pursued it, so I went back to the front yard and called him back, telling him he's the one person I wanted to talk to all day and he pushes me away. He pulled the "well what do you want me to do about it?" and the "I'm sorry" followed by a long awkward pause because I wasn't about to say "it's ok" because it wasn't. And of course I was sniffling because I was nearly crying and I said "I just wanted to hear about your day" and he said "just like every other day" (BAD RESPONSE) and I said "well that doesn't mean I don't want to hear about it." The first time I called and he tried to get off the phone I asked why he didn't call me before he left if he knew he'd be leaving around the time I called. A sheepish "I don't know" is all I got for a reply. All I wanted was maybe an apology for having little time to talk but still taking a mere 5 minutes to ask me about my day, tell me about his, and then thank me for the e-mail I sent last night giving him protein alternatives for a person omitting meat from their diet. Sometimes I don't know if making an effort this summer is worth it when it often seems as if I'm the one trying the hardest. I'm sure I'll take that back soon enough but right now I'm rather irritated.